VIVID DREAMING _ Please comment! :) I'm a Noob :)

VIVID DREAMING

Dream feels like being dead. Convinced I just hit a twilight zone.

At party, inside a house on some crazy drug. Looking at a silhouette of a human figure in a shady corner and I ask who it is. No answer. I think i know this person. I laugh and speak louder. The scene changes. The silhouette is still present. This looks like my bed room; with my girlfriend in front of the mysterious figure. My girl wakes up because she can hear me talking to the manifestation of my inner me (and her waking up is real).

Now awake, I still see a faint vision of my dream and her merging together. The silhouette is still just staring at me, faintly, missing any form of facial features. My girlfriend turns to me and says, "You got intense dreams, baby!"

"What?" Wow, now I'm really awake!!! But some irresistible force drags me back into this twilight zone of dizziness straight away. Within seconds I'm losing control.

The entire night until now I was tortured with intense moments of sleep paralysis. Freaking out, yelling, kicking, moaning, twitching, feeling like dying over and over again. Brutal claustrophobic panic attacks. Suffocating, spewing and cramping and feeling like crap. Unable to tell the difference of dreamy visions and the thing I once called reality.

I'm still at this fake party. I realise I lost my girlfriend in the past few moments, or a long time before that. Somebody must have told her i did something really bad. Yeah, I think that must be it! I don't know what anybody told her, but I will try to find out. I'm in control. She will understand.

Just woke up, my hot girlfriend sitting on my belly. I tell her I experience vivid visions whenever I close my eyes. She focuses on my eyes and looks worried all of a sudden. I try to calm her down. I say "My doctor is analysing my mental state like a video game (balls falling down through maze and shit)".

In front o my inner eye she gets more and more worried. I open my eyes, looking at her. I say "It's ok."

A big, black moth flies around her, making lots of noise and bumping into us. I say "Wtf!? Do u see the moth?".

She just stares at me, empty. I think I'm really woken up by now! My girl is sleeping next to me. I'm paranoid and unsure if thats it now, or what?

I must have fallen asleep short after. I explain to my girlfriend that I'm climbing the tree from branch to branch (on a two branched tree) rather than from the base to the top. Thats why its ok for me to feel that way.

Vampire girl morphs from evil to bestiality. White gleaming teeth with red stained tips "pop" into the flesh of my fingers and she sucks my blood. Ecstatic, erotic feeling of lust hit my brain.

Dreamt of taking sum drug on a crazy party. Ketamine like effects. Visions of colours, monsters and shapes. It wears down now. Memory loss (all still inside my dream).

Cant talk. Left cheek hurting. Bit it from the inside (just in my dream though). Fucking cheek swollen, almost bursting. Gaping crack on the outside, brownish red, sticky liquid squishes out. Ask for 'halal' meat stall for an ice bag. Wont cool my cheek. People make fun of me.

Just found my hat and previously stolen art materials. Go to next stall order 1/2l of lager. In Germany. Guy gives me a large plate with not enough beer. I ask for a top-up. He fills the rest up with gel like cherry beer. I complain and get into trouble. Can't understand anybody. They look at my tattoos and say, "... and now you're saying you're a tattoo artist, right?"

I say "Yes". And they start chasing me. I better hide under this blanket. I hear them passing by. About 40 Germans. Then I seamlessly drift into waking up under my blanket in my real bed.

I cant be fucked sleeping no more.

Now I'm lying in my bubble bath, writing down the crazy shit I just dreamt about. It still causes tensions in my gut. What a crazy, way too real dream world.

I don't know. I might have enjoyed such a vivid dream if I was not disturbing my girlfriend in her sleep. Being my bed neighbour you know. Confronted with my dream attacks and funny spasms.

Anyway. It's definitely very colourful and rich in ideas what a dream like this can deliver to you. I can use this crazy shit for my art, thats for sure. 

good morning